happy birthday to my dear joycie...
im glad you've matured yet another year! and over these years you have really blossomed!
your fashion taste have taken yet another level! and dun worry u will always be a demure girl in my eyes!

but im so sorry i couldnt make myself smile tonight.
i dun mean to look like i pour cold water... heh. sorry :( i feel like i spoil a bit of the mood smsing away just now... but. hope u enjoyed ur bday!

disclaimer: i only feed u food according to CP's instruction during the tekan segment! =)

sigh.
i feel like our distance is causing a lot of tension nowadays.
because we are so far apart, there's so many misunderstandings, slip-ups, and i screwed up some things...
i wonder why at this crucial time i caused so much trouble to you. and the worse thing is im not with you and i cant make up for it properly.
every night im getting butterflies in the stomach because each time we end our last phone call i always feel like we seem more and more distant.

sometimes,
when im free and want to talk to you, you're busy.
when im busy with hall events, you call to talk.
and when that happens and i cant talk to u more than a min becuz im busy with sth, believe me when i say my heart is breaking into even smaller pieces.
if i sound as though i cant be bothered, you're really wrong... i dunno how to explain the situation and that i really couldnt talk on the phone at that point of time.
when i msg u in the day, i feel like im an irritant disturbing u.
over the weeks, i feel as though u are always disappointed in me for sth...

now u know why ive been having nightmares about you :(
i really wish hard for us to get through this phase ...